"Satisfy
Current mood: lethargic
Category: Life
by Marianne Adams/Joan Evrist

I come desperate/ I come weary/ To lay my burdens down at Your feet/ And surrender all of me/ I come hungry/ I come broken/ Longing for Your touch in my life/ To fill me on the inside//

CHORUS: Only You can satisfy/ The deepest longing in my soul/ Only You can breathe new life/ And restore and make me whole/ Only You can satisfy/ Only You can satisfy//

I come grateful/ I come faith filled/ For You've done for me in my life/ Your love has set me free/ I will obey You/ I will proclaim You/ To a world in desperate need of Your love/ Only You can set them free//

BRIDGE: I praise You Lord for Your great love/ For the wonderful things You have done/ Give thanks to the Lord for He is good/ Proclaim His love forevermore

Wow!! What a song...I was singing this...well trying to, as I was on the treadmill today at the gym. I 'had church' during my workout time. Oh well, I'll take it whenever it comes. Thank You, Papi!! This song has been on my heart for a couple of weeks now; so I knew I'd write it out. I want to share it with all of my peeps bc it is truth. Why is it that we have to get to the end of our self, our efforts, our power, our pride...etc. before we finally give in and run to our Lord??? I do it over and over again...when He has been faithful so many times in the past. He IS faithful...loving...long-suffering...powerful, etc. Why is it that I continue to chase after other things/people for my deepest longings??? I know that's a dead-end...I've been down that road way too many times in my life yet I'm so prone to wander from a loving Father who is fully present with me and just waiting to fulfill my every longing if I would just invite Him in. However, I keep looking for 'it' somewhere else?? The good news is that I can turn back to Him at"

HOPE

Hope sees the invisible,

feels the intangible, and

achieves the impossible.

Sin...pleasurable ONLY for a time

Sin will take you further than you want to go,

keep you longer than you want to stay,

and cost you more than you ever want to pay.

The whole truth...and nothing but the truth!

I love my Papi

How can a woman not love the Lord?

* He is a gentleman

* He is confident

* He is a provider and protector

* He is rich and powerful

* He owns everything there is nothing He wouldn't do for me

* He perfects all things concerning me

* He anticipates my wants and needs

* Every day He tells me and shows me how much He loves me

* I don't have to perform in order to earn His love

* He keeps all of his promises

* No one can influence His opinion of me

* He is the ultimate intimate partner

* He can't "disown" me because I am a part of Him

* He prepares a table before ME (Selah)

* He covers me and doesn't expose me

* He wrote his loving words down so that I'll never forget how He feels about me!

NOW THAT'S LOVE!!!

Any man, who wants pointers on how to love a woman, should study GOD!

Wake up every day and thank God for being the best "man" in your life!

Crazy April 2008

Crazy Current mood: blah Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Okay, I haven't blogged in awhile and I'm still not going to share in depth today but here are some of my thoughts, feelings, nonetheless. So...I continue to go through a "season of suffering", I'll call it However, I KNOW that God is working in me...healing deeper places...making me more like Him...teaching me to depend on and love Him above all others...all good stuff, in the end, I know...blah, blah, blah.. but it sucks out loud while you are going through it. Believe me!! I know you know, too. We all have difficult seasons in life...I am not unique in my sufferings.
Furthermore, I am so grateful that my Papa is strong enough and loves me enough that I can just yell to Him that this all sucks...and how I wish I could just do what I want to (my flesh)...the easier things...instead of foregoing immediate gratification, pleasure, etc. But there is this HUGE part of MJ (my spirit) that truly wants all that He has for me. And I know that it is SUPPOSED to cost me everything...as one of my favorite quotes says, "holiness will cost you everything"...and I've always prayed to my Papa that He'd make me willing to be willing to pay that price...everything, completely sold out for Him...but this is one thing to say it and another to "live it out" on this earth. Did I mention that it can suck!!! Sin...the fall...separation from God...it all sucks!! Now if I were to just pursue all that I desire...all that this world says will make me happy...well, I'd be happy but not content or at peace...and the "happiness" would only be temporary. Plus, I KNOW Him...that His Word IS Truth even though sometimes I wish I could "change the wording" :) Hee! So here I am in a difficult situation...whom will I choose? MJ's desires, will or God's will and desires for me which I believe are the BEST for me??? clenched fists; sigh...I choose Him.
Well, I said I wasn't going to share a lot personally, so I'll shut up. Now to the song that God used to minister to me again today...it's from an older cd and apparently I needed to hear it, so God led me to organizing my cd's (bc I'm home miserable with yet another migraine). This song is called,
Crazy by Mercy Me ("Spoken For" Album)
Why would I spend my life longing for the day that it would end*Why would I spend my life pointing to another man*Isn't that crazy*How can I find hope in dying with promises unseen*How can I learn Your way is better in everything I'm taught to be*Isn't that crazy
(Chorus) I have not been called to the wisdom of this world*But to a God who's calling out to ME*And even though the world may think*I'm losing touch with reality*It WOULD BE crazy to choose this world*Over eternity
And if I boast, let me boast in filthy rags made clean*And if I glory let me glory in my Savior's suffering*Isn't that crazy*And as I live this daily life I trust YOU for EVERYTHING*And I will only take a step when I feel YOU leading me*Isn't that crazy*Call me crazy*Call me crazy, Melissa Jo Wilson :) Forever His!!!
I hope there are some peeps out there that will choose to be crazy with me...even when things feel uncomfortable. Desperate for more of God, MJ

Suffering?

Suffering? Category: Life
If You Want Me To
by Ginny Owens
The pathway is broken And The signs are unclear And I don't know the reason why You brought me here But just because You love me the way that You do I'm gonna walk through the valley If You want me to Chorus: Cause I'm not who I was When I took my first step And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet so if all of these trials bring me closer to you Then I will go through the fire If You want me to It may not be the way I would have chosen When you lead me through a world that's not my home But You never said it would be easy You only said I'd never go alone ya oh oh noSo When the whole world turns against me And I'm all by myself And I can't hear You answer my cries for help I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through And I will go through the darkness If You want me to When I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, gonna shoutGonna look into your eyes and see you never let me downSo take me on the pathway that leads me home to youAnd I will walk through the valley if you want me to Yes, I will walk through the valley if you want me to
Well, once again my Papa spoke to me through song and just time alone with Him. I am daily and sometimes minute by minute choosing to go through "anything" as long as my Papa is with me, beside me, strengthening me, and loving me. And He ALWAYS is. Now how many people in our lives can we say the same thing about? Lately, I've written a little about this season in my life...things are a little "hairy" shall we say :)
So, the Lord continues to speak to me about suffering...you know this is a word or topic we rarely heard preached about in the US churches (His Body). Yet, He told us that we WOULD suffer if we truly followed after Him. In order to intimately know Him we have to go through suffering...at different seasons of our lives. I don't like it...don't want it...don't look forward to it...but God's Law is final like gravity. It does NOT matter what you think about it, believe about it., or feel about it ...it will always be truth!!
Anyway, I am choosing to go through suffering so that I can have ALL that my Papa has for me...to fulfill my destiny and calling on this earth...God seems to always use the things that bring me most shame or pain to glorify Himself in me. Because the truth is that this life is not easy...if you are living as a follower of Christ, especially bc God has us go "against the grain" so much. Our culture is sexualized...egocentric...greedy...(what I lovingly refer to as "pleasure-seeking fools")etc.; if we are honest about it. Now this doesn't mean I hate our world, culture, people... it just means that you and I need to be aware of what is going on around us...lest we fall (which I've done too many times). We are to be the light and salt to this world NOT judgemental, pious "jackasses" (even though He loves them too...I can certainly be like this at times...then I repent and cry out to my Papa to change me and my evil, deceitful heart: Jeremiah 17:9). God calls us to be like Him...now that's a tall order, I'd say. One we could NEVER do on our own but lucky for us we have the Holy Spirit to empower and enable us to do that which does not come natural to us, namely suffering. Ouch!! The good news is that He will never let us go through anything that we cannot handle with Him and/or for naught. He is a REDEEMER and is always looking for a way to bless us and to proclaim to the world that He is in the business of TRANSFORMING lives and loves them so! Amen. A part of the price we pay for being transformed is sometimes suffering. Please know that the Lord will not force you to go through suffering...it is your choice...but you cannot know Him intimately, deeply, securely without it. He suffered for us...and we are called to do the same for Him. In the end...He rose from the dead...and know that God only has "good" for us, too, in the end. We are the victors bc of Him who loved us so much that He died for us (John 3:16).